@arpie I don’t think the children’s father will be much help. The DV in the marriage has continued long past the divorce and there is the very distinct possibility he will take me back to court to take the kids completely by claiming I am incapacitated. I haven’t ruled out telling him that I’m having surgery with late notice and not tell him what for till I’m ready- but I’ll have to think about it once I have the plans moving forward. What would have been more helpful is more child support while I am unable to work, but even asking for that could be asking for trouble.
I do have other family members to help though which is good. Since my kids are older (12 and 14) they should be able to help me at home, it’s just driving and stuff.
@cranky_granny I have my sister coming with me tomorrow and hopefully on Monday- she’s a pediatric oncology nurse so can definitely talk the medical talk where needed and advocate for me as well as explain my options if my brain freezes on Monday.
In terms of decisions I want everything they can throw at it that will have a positive outcome and give me the best chances of avoiding recurrence, depending on the results of course. All this time thinking about it does eat at me quietly but I’m pretty good at reminding myself that it is anxiety and doing something to distract myself and calm down. Melatonin is also helping at night.