This can't be happening to me!!!

Kerry , you are not alone.  That feeling of waking up everyday and realizing you are living your worst nightmarre. That feeling when you look at your loved ones and think what on earth is going to happen. That not knowing of the future. Not wanting to make plans. Looking in the mirror at no hair wondering who is this person. Its hard and its not fair and it is soul destroying.  BUT all the lovely ladies above help me and all the other people like us who find ourselves here as a last resort. They do show us that there is hope and that we just have to try and stay focused and not let this diagnosis destroy us. Im struggling everyday, in pain atm after a bilateral mastectomy 2 weeks ago and thinking that this pain I am going through better bloody well pay off! We can wish this away as much as we like but all we can do is what we are advised, eat well, exercise and do everything possible. All we can do is live for today and try and block out that fear. If I come up with a solution on how to make this easier I will be sure to let you know. Fixing things is what I do and leaving it to hope is not working that well but we must soldier on. Love to you from me. Your not alone  ( Although it feels that way, I know)