Hello Lisa,
Reading your post gave me goosebumps because your feelings were so similar to mine when first diagnosed with Grade 3 stage 2. I found a lump the day before attending girlfriends funeral. She died as a result of secondaries to her breast cancer. I felt numb from that moment on and until chemo started. The numbness and fear returned before starting radiation. Lumpectomy and axially clearance with 2 nodes positive. Chemo for 5 months followed by radiotherapy for 4 weeks. 3 weekly herceptin injections to continue until december. None of the treatments were as bad as I had imagined. Now I feel I have given it my best shot. The ladies have given good advice and it helps to take it one step at a time to minimise being overwhelmed. You will find the health care team very supportive and informative. You will be learning a whole new language.
Wishing you the very best
Sue P