Terrified

LisaO, I had a similar ride, no recent sadness but my mother in law died of breast cancer and I thought that will never happen to me! My mammograms were clear, my ultrasound also, however I had Pagets dieseas of the nipple, noticed a tiny red spot on my L nipple and GP sent me to BCI where they said, 100% not cancer,but if still there in 6 weeks we will do a biopsy and guess what 100% cancer, MRI then picked up DCIS, surgery, then another small 4.3mm Her+ tumour. The surgeon said, no chemo, and again no chemo, too small! Oncologist said no chemo, then..... maybe you should just in case! Radiologist said Why did you have chemo? so confusion began, however I commenced Chemo reluctantly Taxol and Herceptin. Oncologist... no you will not loose your hair, guess what....... I have done chemo and worked the whole time, which has taken my mind off the side effects, worst off course was the hair, mainly as everyone knows you have cancer! Nights are the worst and numb fingers and toes, however I must say it was not as aweful as I imagined. Weekly  visits no worries, however all the extra visits were difficult to take time off. Chemo brain, yes, however your dogs will keep you focused and if it is offered give yourself the best chance of fighting the cancer. I did not think the same until I joined this online group and realized so many are much worse than myself. Research yes, but these days Chemo seems to have improved and you may have few side effects.Consider reduced hours and enjoy your dogs, they will give you hope and your customers will support you. 
Day three after chemo always the worst so plan around this and have early nights and you will get through, beanies are normal in winter anyway. 


Best of luck, Cassina