Starting the journey - Waiting

Hi Girls - what more can I say except I had a thought this morning - quite peculiar, I wondered 'How did I tell my friends?' - what did I say to them?, and you know what I can't bloody remember!  It was (and still is to some extent) a blur, but remember one important thing - 'baby steps' - the best way to get through the day is one step at a time.  I get frustrated because I don't hear from my kids for awhile (I get so sensitive) and then I get frustrated because everyone wants to know "how are you, whats happening now?" and that seems contrite I know, but really - some days I just want to talk about anything BUT cancer......Someone suggested I join a cancer support group - well, I don't know about you - but I would rather join an art group or anything, so as we get to talk about 'other' stuff - I do all my venting and cancer chat on here - so I have the best of both worlds really, so when someone pats me on the heat (metaphorically) and says ".........and how are you REALLY dear"  I want to jump up and yell "I'm OK! I am OK!"  I usually smile and respond with "Good" and hopefully they will change the subject - after months of surgeries, medical appointments and treatment - one does 'kinda gets over it!' - However, one day a friend rang me and I had to control myself from going into hysterical stitches as she said to me "Now dear, don't let this take over your life!....."  Yeh! that was funny - even hubby turned around and said "Yeh, I wish - all those bloody appointments etc, as if!"  Bless him, I totally agreed but people say the darndest things don't they - and I still sit here with a grin on my face, nodding at the laptop and thinking - "Now dear, don't let this take over your life".........amazing.  I have a sister (who I think has a mental issue - but that's another story) and she has been banging on at me for a few WEEKS saying she 'thinks' she has cancer and they have been 'putting off' the test because of this and that - Well, ladies, we all know they don't 'put off' anything when it comes to cancer...........anyway this sister said "Oh, now we have a competition!" and laughed - (yeh, right, really funny!) I told her to stick her 'competition' where the sun doesn't shine!  You don't blame me do you? - but yes, it's frustrating the things people say - the sad part is, they will keep saying them, they will keep saying stuff that more than raises the (in my case 'hairless') eyebrows.  They know not what they do - just expect it, and my opinion is thus: If you don't like what they say - darn well say so, what can they do to you? You are going through this, and it is much bigger than their stupid flippant silly coments, well meaning or not.  What do you reckon - this site is the only site where I get 'TRUE SUPPORT' x x x Josie