Welcome Anna Louise.
Have you a breast care Nurse?. They can sometimes provide a wealth of information and can at times be an advocate during Drs appointments.
How many more chemos do you have left? I had a port inserted after round 3. I only had one tiny vein they could use in my hand, and they prefer hands. As I had weekly taxol (12 sessions)and 12 months of herceptin to go (17 sessions) it was agreed a port would reduce my stress and make the process a whole lot easier.
It's awful you feel so isolated. I had someone with me during appointments and chemo, so I had someone to talk to. Is there a local group that can be a source of support also?
I eventually asked my chance of recurrence. I didn't want to know at the beginning. I know my breast surgeon said the same thing to me about chemo. They were able to put in all data...size, nodes, path...and a formula works out your % of disease free rate at 5 and 10 years. The formula of course can't tell you if you are in the average 90% or the 10% of it progressing. There are many cases of women with poor prognosis living full long lives and ones caught at very early stage who go onto stage IV. It's a lotto and impossible to tell. The treatment offered gives you the best possible chance of being one of the ones to go on living a long life and helping others following behind. It takes time to believe this.
So glad you found us and I hope we can provide answers and give you some support in what is a very challenging time in your life. Kath x