So out of control

Hi Kim,

i was diagnosed in April 2014. I had a lumpectomy at the end of May, 5 months of TCH chemo with finished in October, 33 radiotherapy sessions which ended on 19th December and now only have 4 more herceptin to go. And clearly, I have gone through all of this because I'm an attention seeker! Sorry, I couldn't help myself with that one.

It's a difficult process but doable. Fear of the unknown is awful and once you start treatment you will find that you will feel a little calmer.  For me chemo was the worst part, but tell your oncologist everything as you will be surprised what they can do to make things more bearable. Surround yourself with people who are supportive. Do you have a boss higher up that you could go to instead of the one who thinks it's in your head. 

I too am the go to person and the strong one in my family.  It has been very difficult for my family to cope with and get their heads around. My husband is only really just coming to terms with it all now 11 months down the track.  I too have had times when I have felt very alone. I think most people in this situation feels the same at some point. 

With regards to your boss, perhaps leave some of the cancer council booklets at the office for your colleagues to look at. There is one specifically for at work. But do be aware that there are people out there who think they know all about bc and really have no idea what so ever. You can't change them, all you can do is change with way you respond to them.    Be kind to yourself, remember it's ok to be scared and sad and angry. They are all pretty common emotions. You will get through this. Take care and good luck with your appointment. Love Karen xox