Dear Kelly88
Of course you are scared, that's a rational and normal reaction in the circumstances. This is a hard circumstance to come to grips with. But you have got this one early and you can take steps to deal with it. But it's always easier if you take one step at a time. Don't spend your valuable energy worrying about something that hasn't happened yet. When you finish chemo, that's one thing done and dusted. Then you can start thinking about the next step. When you have had surgery, you can think about what happens next in full knowledge of how you feel and react. I only had a single mastectomy, there was very little pain, and I recovered quickly and live a perfectly normal life. Recovery time can vary though from person to person. Your son is too young to understand but children are remarkably resilient. If you have adequate support and advice, he will benefit too. Have you a breast care nurse you can talk to? Best wishes.