Hi @Heles. So sorry that you find yourself here. My re-excision turned up a 4cm dogleg of very busy DCIS that hadn't shown up on any of the multiple previous scans and ultrasounds. The charmingly named 'occult cells'. Not the same as yours I know, but our reactions are not dissimilar. We're taught to trust medical science from when we're babies. And while it's often incredible, it's not infallible is it?
I tend to pick over this kind of stuff too. I've come to realise it's part of my process, that I eventually stop, and achieve some closure. Have a good cry and get those feelings out, and know that you won't feel like this for too long. If you'd like to talk to someone, you could give the BCNA helpline a call, 1800 500 258.
Console yourself that it's gone now, and take some deep breaths. It all happens so fast at the beginning. You're moving onto the next step now. One day at a time. We're here for you!