Recovery blues - looking for a kick up the bum!

I had bilateral racket mamoplasty on the 12th December. I get my results and surgical review on the 7th January and I have my initial appointment with the radiation oncologist on the 22nd January.  
Is is common for people to feel so low?? 
Shouldn't I be enjoying the fact that I'm not to vacuum, iron or hang out washing etc.. 
Shouldn't I be enjoying the good wishes, visits, flowers and chocolates?
Instead I'm feeling self pity and self loathing.. 
I nearly passed out the first 2 times I saw my boobs!! I am normally the positive, calm and controlled person.. I don't normally get easily flapped!
Any proverbial kicks would really be appreciated.
I hope you all have a fantastic New Year xoxo