Re febrile neutropenia ... round two

Thank you for writing back ladies. You have all certainly done it tough.  56 days @AllyJay! I am so glad you beat it. @SOL I will look up that person and try some juicing as tongue and throat are still burning. @Zoffiel a great idea ... I keep forgetting I can say NO. One free week with no dr appointments would be great.  I do wish I had a partner to assist. Am living in a studio flat above my dad's house with other relatives residing. Dad is lovely but I do need to sort everything out for myself. I made an appoint. with my psych today as realising how much living in a pretty toxic environment weighs on me besides the treatments. This is not really the forum for this but to give an idea, I was away three weeks, one in hospital and two with a friend post chemo. I came home to find all our family photos of my deceased mum and grandparents had disappeared.  My sister and I were to go through things together and share items dad didn't want as we are supposed to be downsizing (for pasf 8 years!).  This was really upsetting and I tried to establish communication cordially by text as we don't speak but nothing came of it.  Now I am scared of being hospitalised again an coming home to find the china packed up!  These are just sentimental items but we originally decided nothing would be packed without consultation. I couldn't believe it. Do you think that in the end it is healthier to let go and just remember my darling relatives who I was close to...or argue the toss because they are items they loved? I think I am feeling attached to these pictures and items as they are the closest link I have to being loved back then.  Now I have my dad who doesn't like any confrontation and a sister who told me the chemo and rad would kill me anyway when I told her of my diagnosis...and said she would not be able to support me in any way. I don't need support from her, but saying hello in the morning would be nice. Some ppl say family members react with anger sometimes and this may be the case here, but it is anger about slowing down the selling process and moving to the country that is the issue seeing as my treatment has delayed things. Letting go of everything is starting to feel the only way out of fighting fr my health and worrying where the bloody good dinner service is!  Is it possible to do? xxx