@ara Thanks so much for your reply, I also wish I wasnt here but now that I am its great to meet other people who know what this experience is like, so Im grateful for that. Your pain sounds just like the pain I have. Im obviously concerned about waiting 3 1/2 weeks for surgery when I could be in, in two weeks if I chose implant recon. But at the same time trying to make a calm choice that will affect my quality of life. The pain makes me worry that its spreading and I am choosing to wait for diep surgery at the expense of preventing spread! Its all a bit stressful really. Thankyou for the blessing, and to you also.