Ostrich
Hi Whirlwind doesn't begin to cover it. No family history, first mammogram which I seriously considered not having done and within a month I've had lumpectomy and sentinel nodes taken, bone density,...
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@Irish50
I love that Ostrich!!!! I'm 5yrs on from first diagnosis and still feel this way LOL. To go through once was tough enough to come to terms with, the 2nd time 4yrs later, oh boy!!! very difficult in terms of believing there is any Cancer. I don't think it is or was denial at all, it's more like I was never ever unwell in any way, specialists have just said I had it blah blah blah, and this is your treatment, which I found made me incredibly sick and all the while thinking in the back of my mind. Im being treated for something Ive never felt, no lump no nothing, and never been unwell. Its surreal and bizarre! and yet here it is?? and agree, there are no family or friends you can vent or talk to because they just don't get it, the complexity of everything you feel! You'll honestly get through Rads no problems!! more time consuming traveling to it every day 5 days a week than actually being in there, its so quick and simple. All I can say, is I totally get how you feel, and its completely normal! Id just do a day at a time, and one thing at a time. I too was always very determined with doing everything especially back to work etc., but I finally learnt after my 2nd bout last year that work is not important and I will never put it above ME. I need to work, but its on my terms now. Incredibly frustrating at first to give in knowing bodily I couldnt cope anymore. You're not alone, and we all completely understand!!! Know that for certain! Hugs Melinda xo
I love that Ostrich!!!! I'm 5yrs on from first diagnosis and still feel this way LOL. To go through once was tough enough to come to terms with, the 2nd time 4yrs later, oh boy!!! very difficult in terms of believing there is any Cancer. I don't think it is or was denial at all, it's more like I was never ever unwell in any way, specialists have just said I had it blah blah blah, and this is your treatment, which I found made me incredibly sick and all the while thinking in the back of my mind. Im being treated for something Ive never felt, no lump no nothing, and never been unwell. Its surreal and bizarre! and yet here it is?? and agree, there are no family or friends you can vent or talk to because they just don't get it, the complexity of everything you feel! You'll honestly get through Rads no problems!! more time consuming traveling to it every day 5 days a week than actually being in there, its so quick and simple. All I can say, is I totally get how you feel, and its completely normal! Id just do a day at a time, and one thing at a time. I too was always very determined with doing everything especially back to work etc., but I finally learnt after my 2nd bout last year that work is not important and I will never put it above ME. I need to work, but its on my terms now. Incredibly frustrating at first to give in knowing bodily I couldnt cope anymore. You're not alone, and we all completely understand!!! Know that for certain! Hugs Melinda xo