Hi Sazbe,
I see by the above posts the ladies have embraced you with the support which we give here (via online supports).
Pain relief is the most important thing here.
I remember your first post.... Not only will your partner be dealing with the emotional baggage of losing his first wife to Cancer but he also has the children to look after.... they might all be struggling at this time...
I agree you might need to embrace a friend/sister who can support you emotionally during this time.
your partner sounds like he is avoiding the hospital situation because then he can pretend this is not happening... it doesn't mean he doesn't care deeply about what is happening but perhaps cares too deeply. If that makes sense.
If your BC Nurse comes in today ask about if there is a local BC group.... your supports might come from there.
It is OK to feel overwhelmed, you might feel better after a good cry some women do....
But please ask for more pain relief until you have relief.....
Breathe and remember this shall pass and you will take the steps you need which will enable you to Live.
Gentle hugs and support
Always know the forum sisters/brothers will listen and support you
Soldiercrab