Newly Diagnosed

Hi Everyone,

I was called on Friday afternoon to be told that the lump which I found is actually a high grade invasive ductal carcinoma. Although I did think that it may have been a cancer, I was floored when the doctor spoke those words out loud. I really didn't hear much else after that except that she would make me an appointment for Monday to talk about where we go from here. The biopsy results were rushed back due to the aggressive nature of the cancer they have found. I also had a biopsy taken from two lymph nodes that looked suspicious (these results are not back yet but it is on the same side as the cancer and doesn't look good). My lump is 3cm. 
I will say that I am terrified. I am trying to be strong but have waves were I do not feel strong at all. I am normally quite the positive person. My sister keeps telling me to be positive, but it feels difficult with so many variables (what stage will it be, has it metastasized, etc...). The breast surgeon I have been referred to doesn't have appointments until December, although she does triage so based on that diagnosis I may get in earlier.
It is so scary waiting on all the results. I will no doubt now need to get scans to see if it has travelled to other parts of my body. 
I had to tell my family on the weekend, including my 15 year old son, that was hard.
Does it get easier? How do you stay positive? 
I seem to go to sleep and then I wake with a jolt of realisation. 
I hope to talk to many of you on this journey. You are certainly the ones that will understand after having this experience yourself. It certainly sounds like something that you cannot go alone.

Sue.