Hello :heart:
I have a family history too and had to nag a doctor to even get taken seriously enough to have an ultrasound. Amazing how differently doctors behave. I lost my mother as well, but she lived with it for six years.
I had the same fears. This is it, the clock has started ticking, if there is anything I wanted to accomplish with my life I had to do them now. I'm still thinking that way, and having life halted by chemo side-effects really impacted me psychologically.
We talk about that a lot here, precisely how we all feel about people telling us to keep our "chin up" or how we'll "be fine" and "stay positive". Get In The Sea. It's cancer not a head-cold you condescending trivializing burrito of a person. Right? :lol: There's a lot of value to it, it's just people trying to be supportive the only way they know how- their letting you know that they are there for you. It doesn't feel any better but we have to remember that the intentions are pure.
I have taken the chemo radio hormone route too.
This still feels insane to talk about, but I won't sugarcoat chemotherapy. There were days I felt like it was killing me, but people three times our age can get through it. You can do this too.
I'm a little late for a radiotherapy appointment so I have to run, but will be back to talk more about how I managed a lot of my side-effects. :heart: