Newly diagnosed - tough day
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Thank you @Blossom1961 & @Mez_BCNA
My story so far is that I noticed a slight indent in my L) breast at the end of Feb, then after a few nights looking at it in the bathroom mirror I checked & felt a deep elongated lump. I live & work in a tiny rural town at our hospital as an RN, so our GP is also my colleague, but he was wonderful & referred me on.
My story so far is that I noticed a slight indent in my L) breast at the end of Feb, then after a few nights looking at it in the bathroom mirror I checked & felt a deep elongated lump. I live & work in a tiny rural town at our hospital as an RN, so our GP is also my colleague, but he was wonderful & referred me on.
I ended up going through Breastscreen (4 hrs from home) & they were just amazing.
It’s one week today since I was diagnosed with mixed Lobular & Ductal Ca with the tumour size 6cm x 4cm x 3cm, I got a call this morning that the lymph node that was also biopsied has shown no cancerous cells, so fingers crossed 🤞🏼
So much to navigate now. The kids are ok, my husband is supportive, my line managers know. I just started an additional role as a school based youth health nurse 1 month ago & I feel so sad that this will interrupt my new job, where I am still learning the ropes.
So much to navigate now. The kids are ok, my husband is supportive, my line managers know. I just started an additional role as a school based youth health nurse 1 month ago & I feel so sad that this will interrupt my new job, where I am still learning the ropes.
Anyway, shit happens.
One thing that I think has helped is that I’ve recorded voice memos to get everything out. Maybe one day I might turn them into a blog or podcast or something.
I’m currently feeling most sad about my kids going through this & also about probably losing a breast. I don’t think I really appreciated how much my breasts formed part of my identity, they nurtured my babies, they make me feel feminine & as much as I’m a tired mum, I do feel sad & weird about how intimacy with my husband will look now.
I saw someone else refer to the experience as an adventure. I hope I can reframe it as that eventually.