I am sorry for this crap diagnosis. I know the sense of it not being real - I am 11 months down the track and I still wake up sometimes and wonder for a moment if it was a nightmare - then I reach up and feel my inch - long, post chemo hair and know that it’s most definitely real. I promise that you will get a handle on it with some time. I had the treatment regime you are facing and I was terrified and heartbroken and so sure I would never feel good again. But here I am, feeling well, jogging most days and amazed that my body handled it all so well.
My best advice is to not look too far ahead. It seems like a mountain you can’t get over. Just take it one step at a time. One day at a time. You will get through this. Xxx