Yes, tigerbeth, it is my decision, not that family/close friends necessarily agree with this. I've certainly had interference that has been destabilising and slowed my progress down. Now I'm not saying much to anyone until I'm ready to go with my decision. I had surgery booked for 26 March, then cancelled and am now plucking up the emotional strength and courage to get there again.
JulieVT11 - good to hear you've come through this physically well. Surgery is still seeming like the way for me to go, scary as the thought is. It leaves all other treatment options available. The breast surgeon I will use does many, is highly regarded, though the procedure does carry some risks. The reconstructed side will be a bit smaller than the other one, so I may need a reduction on that one......
And the muddle head, sleepless nights and tear upon tear.....well, I'm coming to the conclusion this might well always be quietly sitting in the background of my life, erupting at inappropriate times as it currently does.
My DCIS surgery produced clear margins, the tumour was tiny and I'll be forever grateful to the wonderful people at the Wesley Breast Clinic where it was detected. My annual check was 14 Dec last year, I was told it was cancer on New Years Eve at 5.10pm while driving to the other side of town to look after my 2 little grandchildren for the night........