My journey of B C

Hi Butterfly 40, I have been away for a few days and just getting up to speed. I am one of the group leaders of the choosing breast reconstruction group. If you haven't already you are  most welcome to join us (that's my next port of call). Once you join you may like to read posts and view our photo stories. When I was first diagnosed my husband told everyone. I was  like you and was emotional and teared up when I said the words breast cancer . I'm not sure why this happened, even when I had come to terms with the diagnosis it happened. I put the word out at the school where my kids attended that I was happy to talk but that nobody was to come up and hug me and ask how I was publically as I didn't want to break down at the school. I am also a nurse and whilst all my team knew of my diagnosis I specifically asked them not to hug me and ask how I was whilst I was at work as I didn't want to cry at work. Work became a bit of a sanctuary where I could do normal things and not think about my BC. I have had a recurrence so lived this twice. I chose to work during treatment, but I always had the week off after chemo. That worked for me, but some find it too hard. You will soon work out what's right for you. i did the group email also. I used to send it out after each treatment. The feedback I got was really positive and people realize you just can't individually reply to everyone and my friends were fine with that. Going back to work also caused me anxiety but like most things the thought of it was worse than the actual event. Remember your friends family and colleagues all care for you and if you put the word out that you can't discuss things at work, they should understand. 
Huge hugs 
Paula xxxx