Just need to write it down.

Soooooooooooooooo I am here. I have never really been one for group discussions or looking for help with stuff. I am the one every one else comes to.

My world changed on the 1st March when I went to the GP with a swollen left breast and lumps. I swear I never felt them before. But now I doubt myself. And the what if started. I must of missed them.

Everything has moved so fast since then. I have had every scan possible Brain, Bone, whole body. That was on the 15th. Went back to the Surgeon that night and was told it wasn't any where else, Which was a great relief. But he asked if I knew I had Arthritis in my neck back and my feet of all places. I didn't . I haven't been to the Dr for years. Never had to. If I had a cold I took Coldral and Soldiered on.

I was booked into have a Mastectomy on the 18th. The Operation went well. I actually was quite calm about it all. Apparently there were 6 cancers in my breast how the heck did I not feel that. More self doubt. They took 10 nodes and only 2 had cancer. Which my Breast Nurse said was good.

Yesterday I was back to the hospital for fluid build up which may be an Infection. So again I was thinking did I notice it when I thought I did or was it there the day before and I missed or ignored it.

My Hubby has been great through all this. He has played soo many games of Patients on his tablet waiting around for me to go through all the tests etc its not funny.

So this is the start of my Journey. It has helped to write some of it down. There is soo much more going on in my head tho.

Maybe next time.

Thanks for listening.