Just been diagnosed - scared..

Hi there @BlackWidow , I hear you when you say you're not the sort of person who goes for "talking it out" with either a group, or one on one with a professional. I also appreciate that you have little or no family support, so I guess you have only yourself to help and love yourself. I get that. I am, however unsure about your  perception of your own "disfigurement" as you put it. You say you feel basically mutilated by having the  one breast removed and wish that the seemingly uncaring surgeon had removed both. Would you have not felt twice as disfigured? Perhaps it is the  lack of symmetry which is most distressing to you? I  had both breasts removed almost a year ago now, and, sure, it took a while for me to get used to the ironing board look, (I used to be a  18D) before, but quite frankly, I'd rather have lost both breasts than my arms, legs or eyes to cancer.  At my age (60 this year), they were just basically decorative, they'd done the hard yards decades before with breastfeeding my kids (2 years 4 months and 2 years 1 month apiece). They'd also provided a good deal of entertainment in my marital bed, but now they were out to kill me!!!  Rats to that....I fully intend being around for a good deal longer, even as, as I call myself "The Titless Wonder". Sending a virtual (((hug))).