I have just been diagnosed

my emotional responses are a litlle all over the shop>.. go from being all loving and mushy and then ten minutes later i am yelling at a man that tailgated me in the car>. slammed my brakes on, got out like a crazy woman and told him he was old enough to know better (was in his 60's) he even apologised haha! still havent cried yet! just keep on telling myself to be strong and the thought of little MYLAH SKYE has me smiling! i know it will eventually come though! i will be listening to your words on here and taking the advice of one day at a time! x i havent told you yet that my partner of four years lost his wife and the mother of his boys to this dreaded thing 10 years ago! she was only 34 years old! i feel selfish thinking i could be putting them all through this again! am hoping for a different outcome