"I don't have time for BC"
Let me start from the beginning... Fri 13th April 2018, a day after I turned 35 years old. As I was getting ready for work, I felt a strange lump on my right breast and it was painful to touch. Initi...
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I so understand how you are feeling. It waa after my re-excision that I really started to cry. I was alone in my room when my surgeon came in. It was late in the day, and I know he had a wife and kids at home waIting for him. He sat with me for ages and was so gentle and kind. It was one of the kindest anyone has ever been to me.
It was dawning on me that my life had irrevocably changed, and that what was happening was going to change me. This was upsetting me intensely. I didn't want to change, I'd had enough change in my life and had worked hard to come to a place of acceptance, of self-acceptance. My surgeon didn't sugar coat it, he was brutally gentle. You will change, there is nothing you can do about it. There are no guarantees in life and none of us know what is going to happen tomorrow, let alone when we are going to die.
He was right of course. The sooner I could accept the change the sooner I'd feel better. It was months before I could, but I did in the end. It still chafes from time to time, however every event in our lives shapes us and BC is a big event.
I struggled with feeling so vulnerable. I was unable to shake it off, I had no reserves. I just had to accept it. It has made me a more empathetic and humble person. That can't be a bad thing eh? K xox
It was dawning on me that my life had irrevocably changed, and that what was happening was going to change me. This was upsetting me intensely. I didn't want to change, I'd had enough change in my life and had worked hard to come to a place of acceptance, of self-acceptance. My surgeon didn't sugar coat it, he was brutally gentle. You will change, there is nothing you can do about it. There are no guarantees in life and none of us know what is going to happen tomorrow, let alone when we are going to die.
He was right of course. The sooner I could accept the change the sooner I'd feel better. It was months before I could, but I did in the end. It still chafes from time to time, however every event in our lives shapes us and BC is a big event.
I struggled with feeling so vulnerable. I was unable to shake it off, I had no reserves. I just had to accept it. It has made me a more empathetic and humble person. That can't be a bad thing eh? K xox