I am in shock

I was 51 at diagnosis. 3 teenage boys. 1 of 10 children, but I was the second sister to get breast cancer. Mine wasn't detectable by mammogram but I fortunately found a lump while still small. I chose a bilateral mastectomy  (mainly because it wasn't visible on a mammogram a mere 5 weeks prior ) and the fear of an undetected recurrence was greater than losing my breasts. My biopsy was es+pr- Her2+  . You will start to understand these meanings later. It meant chemo for me and a targeted therapy which was planned for 12 months but needed stopping earlier as it was affecting my heart. ..which has now fully recovered. The beginning is a whirlwind and the fear is real. I spent many nights awake worrying and slapping on the happy face during the day so my boys would feel confident I would be okay. But I didn't know for cetain, none if us do. But you will get through treatment and reclaim your life and hopefully,  hopefully we become 1of the 90% cancer free in 5 years . Take care. Kath x