Hi! So sorry to meet you here. What you are feeling is perfectly normal, believe me. 1 year ago this month I was diagnosed. My two girls were aged five and two at the time. And we had just moved into a new house! For me the first few weeks were a rollercoaster of thoughts and emotions, most of them centered around my kids. My initial thoughts were for them. I thought I wasn't going to be able to see them grow up - and I hadn't even done their baby albums yet! (still haven't...whoops...) I think that's a normal response. But once the news sinks in and you start to gather information and facts, start speaking to specialists and planning your treatment, that gives you something to focus on and you somehow find the strength within. Give yourself time. Time to process it all. Don't feel guilty for what you are feeling. And remember you have found a great community here. We will be here to support you as much as we can.
I still have my good and bad days. I think we all do. But remember, you have caught it and now you can do something about it. Kick it in the butt. Don't be afraid to ask for help. If there was ever a time in your life to lean on people around you, it's now! You've got this.
Sherril.