@SamJgS thank you for putting up a post and saying Hello! We absolutely can relate to everything you said. Even with friends and family around I found the whole thing so isolating and lonely, its because they had no capacity to understand the depth of it all. I was very ill through treatment, always been Wonder Woman, worked full time and raised 2 beautiful kids alone the past 7yrs, my baby is finishing VCE this year. No matter how I tried to prepare or plan the path forward to look after the 3 of us it was extremely hard. My daughter at the time was doing VCE too, so it was a harrowing year.
Good news is we all made it through, somehow and I look back now and wonder how? that hole was so deep at times, the despair, pain, sadness and loneliness, all of it. So normal to lose friends but I can tell you, what you lose you will make up ten fold in people who really mirror the truth of who you are. I feel so blessed and grateful now for those I lost along the way, it made room for so much more.
I don't think its about positivity or acceptance either, I think its about 1 foot in front of the other, and manage each thought, feeling and emotion the only way that is best for YOU. I learnt I had to let go of everything and go with it, in a way it gave me permission to put me first for the first time in my life. To really nurture me in the smallest of ways, it gave me this the ability to stop and just be. I rocked it bald at home but I had a wig that I preferred when I went out, it was just like my original hair and style, was ridiculous! LOL
Sounds like you are doing really well, please keep chatting and let us know how you are, the Forum is so lovely and supportive. Hang in there,
Big hugs Melinda xo