Freaking out about Mastectomy

Hi. Thanks everyone i had my right  mastectomy and air expander done on monday. its now friday night. it all went well and i am still in the hospital as im not allowed home till the drains come out. it has been flooding at home not the house just the nearby waterways and paddocks.so its just as well to be safe and dry here. but bored. the air expander has some air in it already. So when i look down im not totally flat.  @nikkid omg yes it feels hard and square and weird all the nurses comment on how hard it feels which is why im suddenly freaking out again right now. ive been doing so well emotionally but right now im having a bit of a nervous attack.  i have had confusion with two different sets of instructions from the breast surgeons and the plastic surgeons as they performed the op together but both have slightly different ways of post op management. i hope i havnt done anything i shouldnt. should i even be typing with right hand??
All that aside. Good news my sentinal node was negative  so they didnt have to take any others. after the surgery i felt a strange peace i looked at my reflection and i was still me. my eyes my face my hair all the rest of me was still me. I know this is just the beginning and i havent got any other results yet but so far so good. I think a lot of the fear was around the actually surgery and i would have been almost as scared if having lumpectomy. i still keep wondering if the whole thing could hav been a big mistake though as i had no symptoms at all. it sure does make u crazy. I think the camping is crazy too and wont be going.
cheers vicki