Hi @Sweetpetal, I feel for you, I really do. I was diagnosed in July, no symptoms, no lump I could feel, first mammogram ever. I had right side mastectomy, not having reconstruction, going through chemo now. It is so daunting and scary and I cried so much at the beginning, still do when it hits you like a ton of bricks, what your going through, but honestly you can get through this, don't read too much on the internet, it just confuses you and so much information that contradicts itself, take each day at a time and go outside, take deep breaths and just look at the nature all around us, it will calm you. It's ok to be angry at the world to , you feel like your the only one going through this and nobody understands, at least that's how I felt, but I'm learning to accept my diagnosis and in some ways it was a wake up call to slow me down and stop getting so stressed about every little thing. Thinking of you and wishing you loads of luck on your journey.