Hi @Felicia29,
Welcome lovely. I think most of us, when we are first diagnosed, go to that place of "what did I do to cause this". You will see it time and time and again on here. It's pretty natural to think that, otherwise the fact that our body can turn against us at any tick of the clock becomes quite an unexpected shock of mortality.
BC can affect any one. I work in a surgical ward and have seen 16 year old girls to a 92 year old man.
It's also a sneaky sucker. Not once could anyone ever feel my breast lump either. Nor could all the wizbang machines see it.
The start is just awful, all those unknowns running around in your head and undoubtedly your brain will conjure up every worst case scenario it can think of.
As the lovely ladies have said, once there is a plan and things get moving you feel a bit more in control. Your hospital should allocate you a breast care nurse once they receive the referral. if not, you can ring the McGrath foundation and talk to them.
I found keeping flat out busy helped somewhat at the beginning. Anything to distract my brain from itself.
One day at a time, one step at a time, sometimes its one breath at a time.
All the best with everything.
Hugs
xoxoxoxoxo