Everything seems to be wrong
I was diagnosed with DCIS on 8 April. Due to the size of the calcification, a double mastectomy was recommended. And surgery is now scheduled on 20 May. The waiting is hurting me. I have been having s...
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Thank you @Afraser @Cath62 @Julez1958 and @arpie Thank you for all your kind words. I have talked to my surgeon about 10 days ago and she has kindly organized a CT Scan for me tomorrow. She was confident at our appointment that I just need to do the surgery and the test afterwards will tell if there’s anymore surprises. But given a 4 weeks’ wait (from the appointment to surgery), all kinds of dark thoughts come up. So, I called the surgeon up and told her I wanted to do something, and hope that I’ll be more relaxed going into surgery.
I’m still working full time, my supervisor and colleagues are all very supportive and working helps to take my mind off silly thoughts. But by weekend, especially on Saturday when hubby has to work (and I’ve decided after the diagnosis that I don’t work on weekends), then, all dark thoughts keep flooding in.
@Afraser you are right, I need to trust my medical team.
@Cath62 I had my distress with Dr Google the first two weeks, I no longer go there now😅
@Julez1958 That’s exactly how I feel, radioactive beacon inside me! Mine is intermediate to high grade DCIS, that’s why it’s also causing me distress. Hope I’ll be calm like you after the surgery.
@arpie good to know that I’m not the only one with this tinnitus problem. It’s so annoying especially at night when you try to relax. I’ve been doing exercise after work to help me relax (I do hot yoga but am hesitant to go to the studio since the pandemic). My husband is very supportive as well as my family. But in a way, this journey is still very much a journey of my own. I will check out more resources on this forum!
Will keep you all posted of my CT scan results (another few days of anxious waiting for the results).
Thank you for the love and support❤️
I’m still working full time, my supervisor and colleagues are all very supportive and working helps to take my mind off silly thoughts. But by weekend, especially on Saturday when hubby has to work (and I’ve decided after the diagnosis that I don’t work on weekends), then, all dark thoughts keep flooding in.
@Afraser you are right, I need to trust my medical team.
@Cath62 I had my distress with Dr Google the first two weeks, I no longer go there now😅
@Julez1958 That’s exactly how I feel, radioactive beacon inside me! Mine is intermediate to high grade DCIS, that’s why it’s also causing me distress. Hope I’ll be calm like you after the surgery.
@arpie good to know that I’m not the only one with this tinnitus problem. It’s so annoying especially at night when you try to relax. I’ve been doing exercise after work to help me relax (I do hot yoga but am hesitant to go to the studio since the pandemic). My husband is very supportive as well as my family. But in a way, this journey is still very much a journey of my own. I will check out more resources on this forum!
Will keep you all posted of my CT scan results (another few days of anxious waiting for the results).
Thank you for the love and support❤️