Hello Sandra
Do not feel alone. I read your posting and thought it was me writing it - your story is mine (and that of many others).
Breastscreen ladies are good but the surgeons who work for them sort of get priority, don't they ? The rush is the thing, no-one sits you down to quietly explain what should happen, how and the costs.
I have always thought it best to have private health insurance but really, what does it do except make us BC patients pay one hell of a lot more ? I wish I'd known what I know now - I would have gone public, not letting on I had private insurance. I guess, like you, the lack of knowledge and the need for quick decisions is just too hard.
Having worked from the age of 15 to 55 I figure (too late, the horse has bolted) that just maybe I deserved to be treated via the public purse and not end my life in debt and worry.
I can no longer afford to visit the surgeon or oncologist each 6 months so what will be will be. To me, it is just a money-making thing for them, no compassion - why can't they be happy with the Medicare money ? I used to worry but now i just think that if this whole BC scenario was not there I may just have died now knowing - goodness, isn't that what happened in the past ? How many ladies like my Mum, who died at 96, died not knowing they had a problem ?
You are in my thoughts and I hope you are able to get some support to get your through the bad times. We all have them.
Big hugs Summer :-)