Dread of Chemo

Thanks everyone for your support and advice, I haven'[t been on the forum as following my Chemo on 9 Jan I had a very rough ride. 3 Hours after getting home I started vomiting and didn't stop till I was taken to hospital where I stayed for 4 days. Dr said I was super sensitive to Chemo and it took them a while to balance out the meds so I could start to recover. During this time I really thought I wouldn't be able to continue with treatment, it felt like the drugs were slowly killing me. I couldn't speak, eat, relax or sleep. I went home on the Saturday morn barely able to sip flat lemonade and swallow mashed up banana. Next morning I woke with a debilitating headache and what felt like a golf ball in my throat and temp of 38.3 so off again to hosp. Stayed the day in emergency and they found a chest infection and thrush in my throat. Pain killers and big doses of antibiotics and some disgusting liquid for my mouth and off home again. By this stage Day 6, I was only able to live in the moment and felt like my life had been taken away from me never to be got back. I guess depression had set in and the feeling of hopelessness got the better of me. Each day since then has improved and today Day 14 I feel like my old self again. So, now I understand that the cycle is,  week 1 (forget it, just get through it) week 2 and onward just gets better. Due to my severe reaction, Dr is going to reduce the chemo by 25% and up the anti-nausea meds. He says I won't be as bad again. With this hope, I'm preparing my body and mind for Round 2 on 30 Jan. Meanwhile, I am eating healthy, little and often and walking 30mins a day as of today. Mentally, I know that if I feel really bad again, I can believe that it wont last forever and I will get back to normal. Good news that I still have hair!!! for how long though???