Disappointed and confused by the system

Thanks Marg. I guess I thought I had to say yeay or nay so they could give the booking to some other poor pathetic creature in the same (or even leakier) boat. Part of the problem in the decision is that I wasn't sure of which specific chemo was being proposed, I thought he said AC but wasn't sure. So I rang the nurse, sorry, clinical nurse supervisor and asked. My daughter had already researched the cocktail bar and said both the A (doxyrubwhatever) and the C (Cyclophosetc) were noted for causing bladder irritation. Asked the nurse, she said, "well, that's standard therapy, you have to drink a lot of water". I said I had bladder prolapse and repeated bladder infections, including right now this minute, and she said, "Hmmm, I think we did have someone else with that problem ..." And??? Conversation stopped there. Am I being ridiculous to think this might be relevant? Oh, right, I need to get with the standard program. Anyway I think that's tipped the scales. I'll take the risk, go for the radio and hormone therapy only and see how it turns out. If I am wrong and mets turn up in 12 months or less, then I will have backed the wrong horse. I do have a racing background btw. "And now, coming down the straight, it's Red Devil by a nose!". I don't think so.