Hi @eastmum
I've been playing ping pong with this bloody disease since 2006. I thought I'd won the set, but it takes more than one set to win the game. So on we play.
I've had pretty much all my removable bits extracted or lopped off in order to get on top of it. Two goes at chemo and a damn good frying last year and I'm still here. I moan and groan about being tired and sore and generally pissed off with my current condition, but there is always the hope things will improve. It keeps me going. The alternative is to succumb to despair which would mean I've rather wasted the last few years.
I don't know what is worse, knowing or not knowing, but some things you really need to have a handle on. There are good reasons to be frightened--this disease can kill us and that fact comes home to you pretty quickly when you are first diagnosed. The fear diminishes as time passes. Sort of. I guess the sword hangs over everybody, but some of us get to see it.
Regarding the coming scans, the bone scans are pretty accurate. Cancer glows in a different way to all the old breaks and lumps of bone clunking around in your joints. If something hinky does come up, you will have more tests.
Good luck in the coming weeks--I genuinely do feel that luck is the major factor where breast cancer is concerned. Yes, there are things that have been proven to contribute but most BC is not attributable to genetics or life style. Just as well, otherwise there would be no fat naughty old women left on the planet which would be a serious loss. Marg
