Confused, no reaction

I was diagnosed with DCIS in May last year and at the time and all through (treatment still ongoing) had very little emotion about it. I down played it to my three adult kids, none of them live in the same town as me. However in the last few weeks I seem to have hit a wall, I had Hercepton last week No.13 with five to go. I am usually able to cope but have found that at the moment I can't. Thought I'd reach out for help and on my really down day tried to call the Cancer help line after trying to get through twice I gave up this made me feel a bit helpless. I did get on to the bcna nurse the following day who encouraged me to try again which I did and now have a phone appointment set up for next week, two weeks after my initial call. The nurse who I spoke with was going on leave but told me that she would get someone to call in the next few days, but haven't heard from them. I am not great at sharing my feelings, but just being on this site has helped.