I totally agree that making these decisions can send us mental. I had mental break downs many times for the last few weeks when I was facing choices of radiotherapy, unilateral or bilateral mastectomy based on my post lumpectomy pathology results. I was told to follow my gut feelings by the breast nurse. I was so upset and wondering what and where my gut feeling was while riding on this emotional roller coaster.
I just had a genetic consultation and bloods taken today. It takes 6 weeks to get the results back. I was so grateful that I was seen by a breast surgeon as part of the genetic counselling. I walked out of the door with a clear plan.
Anne, I totally understand how you are feeling now. It's the most uneasy decisions to make. I was diagnosed with invasive lobular cancer just before last Christmas and had lumpectomy. I was 40 years old. I had the feeling of get rid of everything as quickly as possible after given choices of radiotherapy or mastectomy. As time passed, I actually has changed my mind with all the information I gathered. I don't know if it's the right decision, but I am happy with the decision I made at this point of time. Wishing the very best with your decisions!
Lots of love and hugs for you!