Hi @sawsan
I had a chemo regimen that sounds about the same following a mastectomy and axillary clearance (only one lymph node was malignant). Four infusions of A/C three weeks apart and 12 of Paclitaxel, one every week. Just to be sure I also had a year of Herceptin and ten years of letrozole (hormonal therapy).
Chemo sounds scary but not everyone gets really bad side effects. I didn’t have any nausea (sickness), fatigue or chemo brain. I worked throughout treatment. I did lose my hair but chose to wear a wig and most people had no idea I was having treatment (unless I told them) - I looked perfectly well.
No-one recommends chemo lightly - it’s not pleasant but so far it’s one of the best ways of killing off remaining cancer cells and avoiding a recurrence. None of us wants to go through this twice!
@arpie has posted lots of good advice but the short answer is that you don’t know how you will react until you start - so best to do so with an open mind, deep breaths and see how you go. And deal with one day at a time, one treatment at a time. Anticipating what hasn’t happened yet isn’t helpful. Now, however hard, is a time to live in the present. With any luck, you may find it easier than you fear. Best wishes.