Yes, I too am starting to feel like a zombie, getting fat, forgetful, cold and self conscious, night time is the worst, but each day the end of chemo gets closer, they tell you about side effects but not the grief and loss, and tearfulness. Only hair they say! but its the itching, and painful scalp that hurts, With the support on this site someone is always positive and we turn to others who have experienced the same, rather than those who say "you will get through this", yes but we can whinge a little to help us through!