breast cancer roller coaster

@CateH I think it's not uncommon to feel emotional once chemo is done. I too found it very hard going, I gained LOTS of weight and was just exhausted all the time and just so darned depressed. My end of chemo was a bit of an anticlimax really. By this time everyone was a bit over it and didn't really appreciate how significant it was to me. ...as it really tooks its toll and I truly felt like a marathon runner dragging myself across the line. If course for me I was back still having herceptin. Recovery was slow and I thought I'd be ready to try to return to work in 3 weeks only to realise I needed yet another month. I was teary and finally able to grieve for what I had lost...my boobs, my hair, my figure, my energy and the biggest, my ability to feel that I could make plans for holidays and retirement etc...as I was so scared I wouldn't even make that age or be able to do any of it. Slowly slowly though my energy returned, I tackled my weight  and I am slowly reclaiming my life and thinking of myself as a survivor. For how long? We don't know that but I'm  determined to continue to believe I am cancer free and just get on with living not waiting to die. The shift was gradual and then it basically was because I chose to believe it. Hoping your radiotherapy goes well and that you just take time to geal from this assault on you, both physically and emotionally. Kath