Hi Lisa - been there not that long ago myself - felt lost and hopeless .- as if there was no future for me .What helped me was a couple of practical friends who pointed me in the direction of looking outside myself and that's when I started to look at this site , the Cancer Council and even found a local bc group . For me the turning point was to know women were coping with the journey , women had made it thru the 5 years but most importantly they were living their lives - that life had not ended. I read women on this site supporting each other daily and sharing ideas to manage side effects.I met a local bc group on the weekend who shared stories and who I'll see moving about my community living their lives. I heard the voice of a fellow bc lady who gone thru my situation a decade ago in another state -her voice tinkled with life and energy and she shared that with me.I know it's not an easy journey and there are tough spots along the way but if we hang in there during our treatment cycle , share with others whom we feel safe to do so with we will get there. I have heard from many it does change your life but many feel they are better because of it. Find things that you enjoy that you can do during tough times - I like reading and music..You are not alone there are many of us. Look outwards - there is a lot of life to enjoy