Always Worried

@Melsie97 I just wanted to send a massive HUG!!!! and let you know you are so not alone!!! Super super normal to feel that way and worry and as others have said, in the midst of treatment its front and foremost in your mind! My first diagnosis in 2011 my daughter was 13 and my Son 11 and I was only 6 months out of my marriage and into a new place and getting my life together as a single parent. My Radiologist at the time told me to sit down and talk to my kids, obviously on their level, however he said dont with hold, that communication is so vital. I remember before I did that my son was in tears, he just lost his Dad so to speak, he lost his home and was petrified he was going to lose me. I remember hugging him and saying you know what "THis is really crappy whats happening!, but NO I'm not going anywhere, its going to be tough for a while but thats all" It was the hardest few months of my life alone with no support as my Mum passed 2009 and there were days I wanted to crawl in the corner and give up but I didn't. I think if anything back then I taught my kids you never give up, you never give in and I never did. OF course I went through a tougher time 2015 with a recurrence but they were older and even came to chemo with me! AMAZING KIDS!!! Everyone will say, it never goes away that fear...but honestly??? I refuse to let that dominate my here and now and miss out on what I have in my life right now. Thats how I cope I think with the fear of it. Big hugs xoxoxo Melinda