Thank you all so much. I'm overwhelmed with how understanding and caring all the ladies on the network are. @SoldierCrab great idea getting an agency to back me up. I will check out those links. @melclarity I do believe years of anxiety and stress at his hands contributed to my diagnosis and I want to get out so it doesn't come back. My kids need one sane parent alive and well! @LMK74 I despise him. I can't figure out what I ever loved there lol! I'm feeling so much less defeated than this morning. Thank you!