@Molly001, we all deserve to be happy or at least content. I stayed in an abusive relationship for 14 years. It was never physical but mental and emotional abuse. I was constantly walking on egg shells wondering what each day would bring. When he was nice, he was wonderful but when he was abusive I loathed him. I eventually couldn't take anymore so I left. I know I don't have children to consider but you're young and deserve so much more. To this day I never have been in another relationship and feel I never will.