Hi @12paws,sorry you are here but so glad you found this wonderful forum.
I have seen psychologists on and off all my adult life. I am booked in with a cancer council counsellor (say that 3 times quickly!lol) tomorrow as I am only at the start of my BC experience but feel myself slipping. Maybe if you feel you have reached a road block with your current psych you could try a new one? Just a thought. To answer your rhetorical question.......I don’t know why it’s so hard but it bloody well is and it sux. I can relate to feelings of having so much to be grateful for but just can’t be.
You have got this far, you are obviously strong and determined. You are gutsy just for sharing.
Take care.xxx