Where im at...

I remember drinking so much water during and after every chemo so that I could flush that red poison out of my body. I would feel much better when my urine was no longer fire engine red. My weekly taxol has no colour but I still try and drink alot as I don't need the worry of kidney damage as well. I think we have enough to worry about with the poisons they pump into us. Ive found my tummy has been very upset with each chemo but never as much as with this taxol treatment. I try and tell myself it may be a good way to loose all the kilos I've put on but it's very inconvenient. The cramps are horrible... I'm hoping it stops soon. :) How are you feeling about your surgery to remove your breast? It all happens so fast I wonder if we get the time we need to work through it. I was more frightened of chemo than loosing both my breasts. Sounds silly I'm sure but chemo has my emotions all over the place. I still think my bilateral masectomy surgery was easier than my 5 cycles of chemo I've had so far. I'm reminded of the side effects of chemo twice a day as I inject myself with clexane after getting clots on my lungs. I have quickly gotten over my severe needle phobia and now injecting is just like cleaning my teeth. It is amazing the strength we have within... Just a pity we have to go through this to find it. Take care Mel xxx