What I wish for.....
Through all of this I have learned that I f@#king hate cancer (any type...!!). Everyday it is in my face & I am really over it. I wake up every day & it is the first thing I think of & it is the last ...
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Putting thoughts into writing in my opinion is THE best therapy. All this crap that builds up needs to come out before you burst. You can only do so much 'positivity' can't you until you want to scream. People keep saying "you are so brave" or "you look so good" or "chin up" and it's so irritating after being told this over and over again. You just want to scream at them "I'VE GOT CANCER YOU TWIT, I DONT LOOK GOOD, I'M BALD", or "I'M NOT BRAVE, I JUST WANT TO SURVIVE". I know they mean well and are trying to cheer me up and perhaps they don't know what else to say. But I get so tired of agreeing with them to make them feel better and I know it's been said before but we most of us are generally positive or trying to keep so but sometimes you just can't, so ranting and venting on this network is wonderful because all of us understand.
Vent away and welcome.
Love Janey xxx