@Zoffiel I think like most things in life, there's a time for them. And I think coming and going depending on one's mood and frame of mind, is perfectly normal. Some days the raw pain is too much for me. And this week I haven't wanted to be here as much; doing a lot of processing.
However I want to say I've never perceived you as hanging round on the edges. I really value the perspective of the old hands, as much as those who are just ahead, or progressing with you. And your salty voice is an absolute treasure.
You do what feels right for you. K xox