iserbrown
7 years agoMember
Well being
Today I filled out a questionnaire for the Ex-med Cancer program. Well I cannot believe how it has caused me to feel slightly emotional. Naturally the questionnaire is in depth and what it has done ...
It's interesting how distressing some of these things can be. I became a full on activist following my first BC in 2006. I joined groups, got involved with committees and spent a lot of time and emotional energy on the inequality of services rural and regional people endure. That went on for about five years then I dropped everything--5 years is long enough to have your knickers in a bunch.
Fast forward to 2016 and I found myself back on the cancer bus. This time I have only involved myself with this forum and have resisted requests to move back into the advocacy space. I just find it too draining. I'm not well enough to be sanguine about my situation and can't separate my own feelings from any discussion well enough to be objective. To be honest, I'm even finding this forum isn't helping my wellbeing at the moment--it's one thing to be in the thick of treatment, it's another to be hanging around on the edges wondering if you are ever going to be well.