Right now I'm sensitive with everything I think, I just don't feel attractive, the hair, the surgery, my skin isnt great either, I just don't need an oncology nurse telling me to lose weight on top of everything.
You try so hard for everyone else, yeah I'm doing great, I feel fine, to be "up" and then sometimes it hits you how hard this all is. Your family is going through enough and I dont want to add to my husbands pressures, by having an emotional breakdown.
My 18 son is having some difficulties dealing with everything and he looks at me with such sadness, "you okay mum?" I want to make it easier for them.
I think if I cry I just won't stop.
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